Transition...

I have alot to write about but I don't really know where to start at the moment... I've been moving over the past four days and I'm pretty worn out, to say the least.... today was the easiest day of all, physically, but more of an emotional day as I said thank you and goodbye to all that I've lived with for the past year+. I had to go back for the boat because I couldn't get the trailer working late last night when we were leaving. Today after some work on it everything hooked up great. I spent some time in the forest before leaving and expressed my love and gratitude. It's a beautiful drive here to Asheville. Where I've moved to is just north of Asheville, and it's great to be completely out of one experience and starting a new one. I think it will take a little bit of an adjustment, but it all feels good. It's a wild feeling- the transition of one thing to the next. Maybe just this time it's different. Maybe I'm at a different point in my life where my experience is different, and that's all. But, I did just have my Vision Quest ceremony in September, which was a huge thing for me. And I just had another huge ceremonial weekend this past weekend. So...as I get unpacked and adjusted, I'll write more :)
I hope everyone is well and enjoying life!

Letting Go...

The end of a season is here... yesterday I was emptying pots of plants to the Earth... saying thank you and letting go of a season that felt like I didn't even really get to witness. I missed most of the spring and summer due to work and even though I planted some herbs and veggies in pots (not knowing if I'd be living at the house all season) it was a sad moment for me, uprooting myself, letting go of the summer that I'd wanted to grow so much more, and being thankful for what I had done. It's been one crazy year. I can't let myself forget that. Things are changing, and who knows what this coming year will present. I have a feeling it's going to be a little crazy as well, but in a much better way. With some unexpected stalls in house hunting over the weekend, I'm hoping to find a place today or tomorrow. I need to- Grandfather is coming to town Wednesday and I'll be busy with things from then until Sunday. Teachings this weekend and rebuilding the Spiritlodge, and Spiritlodge ceremony Sunday. Then I've got to be out of the house next week. So... let's hope for the best. Charley Bubba cat has still not come back yet- I was thinking about him last night and I think he's journeyed on. It was unexpected. I wish I'd said goodbye and thank you when he was here. Last night it got down to 29 degrees. A little bit of ice this morning. The season is changing and I'm beginning to appreciate it more than ever. As much as I'm a warm weather person from southeast Texas, I am appreciating much more the seasons, the differences and gifts of the different times of year. One leads to another and all are important. So... we'll see what's next : )

Just a quick update... we are still looking for a house to rent in the Asheville area. This past week has been a whirlwind- I'm ready for some downtime but I don't think that will happen any time soon, or maybe it will? We had a work weekend at the Garden which included a suprise birthday party for Garrett. We all had LOTS of fun that weekend, lots of laughing and silliness. Rainbow Eagle is coming next week, and it would be great if we could find a house and move in this week. We're going to go look at some places today. That's about all I have to write about at the moment... much love to you all. : )

Well, well, well... (again)

Changes are still in the air : ) Yesterday was my last day at Earth Fare... and today I am on a new path. It's a new day and a new sunrise. I'm starting to get the tiniest glimpse of it, and I'm liking it. Stonewolf and I decided not to take the rental house on the farm. May sound strange, but as "perfect" as it seemed, it did not feel "perfect". We each kept having our own reservations and we didn't really understand why. Although it was bringing up fears for us, and allowing us the opportunity to work through them, it just wasn't feeling very good! It was bewildering. We weren't excited about it... weren't looking forward to it. It was so strange. So, since we had not made any official move on the house yet, we decided to let the owner know what we were feeling to keep him in the loop. He basically flipped out in a pretty rude way and said not to waste his time again. Huh? It was a "wow" situation and I am glad we had this experience now before moving in. What an amazing relief I felt after hearing from Stonewolf what had happened. It was wild- all of the conflict I'd been feeling just went right out the window. What it's taught me is to listen to my gut... big time. Those intuitions.... it can be tricky when the picture looks so pretty and you think, well this has got to be right cause it seems so great... but... it doesn't FEEL great... and the thing is, no matter what, we always have a choice. That's the beautiful part. We have a choice to create whatever we want, and to step onto whichever path we choose, no matter what that path looks like. So, we're moving on towards finding something that feels REALLY good and we're both really excited about. That's really important right now- to CREATE things that feel really good and give us the opportunity to live our lives how we want to. So, yeah for us! Yeah for changes, and yeah for what's ahead.
I'm wishing you all well.... : )

Take a step onto the path that you choose.....

Well my goodness, what a whirlwind of a few days it's been. By the way, happy full moon!! So I left off last time in just finding out about having to move. After the shock, frustration and saddness of that, I feel very sure that this is what's supposed to happen (of course). Garrett and I are going to move to Asheville- there is no need or reason to move to Johnson City. We really feel like we're both supposed to be in Asheville right now, for whatever reasons. So... we went to look at some rental places yesterday- and had two to look at- one was very interesting as it was on an organic farm, and the other was in the city. So we got to the farmhouse and the experience there was amazing. We were both overwhelmed. First of all, Patrick, the owner who also lives on the farm, is a great guy- very present, grounded, understanding, positive, and very tuned-in. There is another family who lives there who seem great as well. The farm has several neighbors and it is kind of a community situation- people working the farm together, having cookouts, hanging out, etc. There are vegetables growing, chickens running around, and a greenhouse. Part of the attraction of this place for me is that I can grow things there and share the greenhouse. It is organic, and has been grown organically for 17 years, although is not certified organic. The greenhouse plastic will stay up in the winter, which is great because I'd like to try some cold weather vegetables, and was considering a cold frame or something. For me, I could make a start at one of my dreams- growing and selling plants, vegetables, herbs, whatever. I could actually do it, which is kind of crazy. It of course brings up alot of fears for me, but I'm working through it. It's funny- you can talk about what you want so much and then when it's presented, it's like "oh, wait a minute...". I've been praying and praying for things to come into my life- and this is one of them. So, I asked for it and here it is. Now what am I going to do with it? There is also a small barn that would be ours- which would make a great workshop to build things, etc. Patrick says I'm welcome to use his woodshop.... where he has a planer, etc- the things I don't have. I can have a separate garden or I can share in the community one, and everyone works at it and shares in it. There are fresh organic eggs.... another thing I've asked for! There is a river that runs through it, hiking trails, a cave (yeah!) and other things I'm forgetting. It's outside Weaverville, NC, and is about 20 minutes to Asheville. Both Garrett and I really got overwhelmed and had alot of stuff come up for us, and have been working through it. We both feel like we're supposed to be there, and so does Patrick. He wants someone who can really put some energy into the growing thing. So as much uncertainty there is, we feel like it is what we're supposed to do. And all of the fears and energy that's come up with this place, is just an indication of great growth happening and to come. And, we're going to have courage and take a step towards it, as scarey as it might be. We trust, and we know it's going to be ok. We can move in sometime this week I think, and my last days at Earth Fare are Monday and Tuesday nights! I can't believe it's all here and everything is changing. So we'll either move in this week or next, which works great because Rainbow Eagle is coming on the 23rd. All perfect timing. Now to get packing :)
Then after some processing and chilling time, we went on to see Malcolm Holcombe play at the Grey Eagle. A great venue and one of my favorite musicians. I don't think I've ever left a show of his without having cried once. He is amazing and I love how he really goes straight into the depth of emotion, and music. It was the best show I've seen of his- although I've seen many and many were better for different reasons. This show he was so comfortable- and at home. One of the things I love about him is that he is truly himself- no matter what people think. And I think that is beautiful. And last night he had more of a freedom in that. It was great. I'd suggest checking him out at least once for the experience if you ever have the opportunity. www.malcolmholcombe.com
So, the decision has been made, we're moving to this house- and even in the uncertainty, it's good to know we're going down this path, and it's going to lead us to a whole new world. I feel my life is changing big time, and look forward to all of the beautiful things that are to come.