on the move...

Ok things are starting to move... and speaking of that, after much deliberation Garrett and I have come to a decision to be roommates in the house I'm already in- to just stay here for a while, maybe until the spring. We tried to rent the place next door, which is much more private, and one-story, but it's already rented. After trying to find a place to share in Asheville, and not finding anything so far, we decided to make a choice and just stay here where it's alot cheaper to live, and the animals are ok, over the winter. It will be good for both of us. So today I started major cleaning up and moving stuff around to move him in. The house is ok, but the stairs to go upstairs to two small bedrooms are very steep- it's like mountain climbing! I have to carry Petunia up and down cause she can't make it. It's hard on Zep but she's handling it ok for now. It will be nice to have some company and a good friend around. It will also be nice to split the costs! So I have a week and a day left at work... hopefully it will go quickly and easily. It's been a bit of a challenge with management who lack people and communication skills, and sometimes I think simply human skills (not to get judgemental). Once that is done the road is open for me. I cannot wait for this change. I've never experienced this with a job before.... and it's been a great lesson in learning to stick with it and be ok in the midst of what is not ok. But it's also come to a point of doing what is good for me, what is healthy and supportive for me. So that's also a good lesson. I'm going to be making a road trip to Texas to visit my sister and her husband, my mom, dad, grandmother and brother. I'm looking forward to it. I also hope to make a trip to Kentucky to visit friends.
A Grandmother gave me a book at my Vision Quest called The Laws of Spirit by Dan Millman. It's a small book and I've found it to be great so far. I was reading one part about choice. It was talking about how important it is for us as humans to have a choice in what we do. When we feel trapped and feel as if we have no choice, it totally changes how we feel, how we view the situation, and how we react to it. When we feel trapped and feel like we have no choice, we can be resistant. It's important for us to recognize that we have a choice and we can say no. Sometimes when we just really realize that we CAN say no, we no longer feel trapped and are able to be much more present and do what is best for us. I think this is important and it's important to remember. Are you in a situation where you feel trapped? Something that you feel is not right for you and you can't get out of it? You do have a choice, no matter what. You can say yes or no, and it's up to you.