Well Zeppelin has been feeling much better. It's quite a rollercoaster and feels strange now that she's feeling well for so long, after she was feeling so bad. Don't get me wrong- I'm grateful that she's feeling well, but I just don't know what to expect. Not that you can ever (or should ever) expect anything in life.... it's just that expecting, anticipating the death of a loved one is not easy or fun. But, we're both doing much better with it all. I've realized over this past year that it is important to be patient with myself and with life. There are hard times. There are difficult times and challenges. They will pass, they will not last forever, but they may be around for a while. Things will be different at some point. It's ok if I don't feel well. It's ok if I'm tired. It's ok to not be feeling great because it takes all kinds of experiences to make up life. I am hoping that I will find lots of fun, easier and good feeling times at some point later. Zeppelin has been coughing much more today, which is something new. The suggestion of the vet to take daily notes on her condition has really helped- it helps me to see patterns over time. She was a little worse today, but not in pain, just coughing and looking like a little more was going on with her. We'll see how she is tomorrow.

This sounds like such gloom and doom! I was having a kind of rough day, just getting motivated.... then I had some personal prayer time. Then I takled to my sister- that really helped! Now to go to sleep.... must get up at 4am for work tomorrow... ugh.... sould have been in bed at 8pm, but that is just impossible!!! not looking forward to being tired tomorrow, again. gotta get a better work schedule.... I'm tired of being tired all the time..... then I get a few days off, get caught up, then get tired again cause my work hours are all flipped. Oh well, I'm grateful to have the job... and also looking forward to something a little more balanced in the future.