one step at a time...

Well, how and where do I start. Friday I took my beautiful dog Zeppelin to the vet to get some xrays done of her lungs. She had a cancerous mammory tumor removed a year ago, and the vet wondered if the cancer had spread to her lungs, due to a cough and a limp. A vet was able to go over the xrays with me, since my vet wasn't able to see me until Monday evening. The cancer has spread to her lungs, and in the vet's words, it is "advanced". There are several large tumors, and several smaller tumors in the lungs. This is not good. It will be fatal and there is usually not a large survival time. I am waiting to write about any more details until I talk to my vet tomorrow evening. I am feeling many things- shock, numb, sad, afraid, worried, angry, etc. etc. Part of me feels like I'm walking around numb, and sad. Another part of me is hopefully and looking forward to every moment more than I have with her. Zeppelin is feeling ok- very happy at times, and seemingly stiff and just not moving quite as easy at others. I've been working of doing lots of things that she loves, we've been taking more walks in her favorite places (along the river, parks with lots of doggie smells, etc. etc.) without getting her too overworked. She's gotten new treats and new tennis balls, her favorite :). Today she got a bath. I said hey- just because you have cancer doesn't mean you get out of having a bath! You're filthy! :)

So, I have lots more to share, and I think this place is going to be good for me, to be able to vent, share, etc. So thanks to anyone who takes the time to read and "listen". We're both in need of support, so please feel free to send any love way. We love you too. :)